I've decided that I want a Nintendo DS. It would be the first video game system I've owned since my Gameboy (one of the very early generation ones, grey with a greenish and black screen) finally gave up the ghost sometime in late middle school.
I played with one last weekend and had a lot of fun. And they're making a Guitar Hero game for it!
Is this weird? I feel weird desiring video games.


Speaking of consumerist lust, I'm coming to the dark side - I'm asking for an iPod for my birthday.


In other, related news, I currently have about $100 to my name.


Also, I should be working on a paper right now.

I have just realized something terribly serious.

I am not a man.

You see, I already knew this, of course.
However it seems to me, on reflection, that what has never truly sunk in before this evening is that, as not-a-man, I am not much of the sort who (even were I rather more wealthy than I am) could ever obtain a bespoke suit.

And that is what I currently desperately want.


We see the problem here?




(If you do not know what a bespoke suit is, I advise looking it up, and visiting the link I've placed at the end of this entry. You will be the better for it.)


On a fairly related note, this is a book I need.


I shall pursue tailoring anyway, I do so hope, at some point in my life. It is a path I need to follow until all fits gloriously.


( More on my sartorial choices: jodphurs, chilly weather, scarves. )

Yesterday I bought:
( Food, music, a book, and, with my patience, a signature. )

Tonight was a concert (meh... but I had nice chats with my co-worker and his friend, and later with my boss), then what I think was a radiantly excellent radio show.

Oh, and by the way, this what inspired my suited espousing.

OH MY GOSH ballet dancers.
Oh my gosh Alan Cumming!
Oh.... Facebook. Oh, stalking.
Oh, my favorite photographer attending my school's graduation and my NOT BEING THERE. oh, intense levels of cuteness.

I am so hot for ogling male ballet dancer's headshots, and Ryan McGinley, and the fact that today I got the next two volumes of the only manga I own (Gorgeous Carat: it has whips!), the new Out with Mika and a gorgeous shot of Patrick Wolf with a rhinestone tiara over his face, and a fashion magazine named "Androgeny."
All the reading I got today was for the beach... though some of it might be kept more under wraps than I would choose if the house was not going to be filled with family, including childer and a few conservatives. I shall ride my bike to the beach and wear my sunhat and lie on a towel and read about whether Mika is "gay / post-gay / not gay."

I have a job interview tomorrow!

I really want a bright-colored cowboy hat of some sort, hopefully made of straw. The Mighty Boosh is doing strange things for my sense of style.

Weeeel, I got some of the best news of my young life today. It has yet to sink in. And I'm not really going to go into it, but suffice it to say there was something bothering me for a long time that has been resolved (I hope).
Um... yes.

Today I bought 4 different yarns and new crochet supplies, and ordered the last Harry Potter! Tomorrow I am going art supply shopping. Also today I had a nice time with my friend Mattie, listen to and told crazy stories, ran into someone we both know (it was awkward), ate a nice grilled cheese sandwich and carrot sticks for about $2.50 (oh, I love cheap lunches), and got a bit of a waxing for the beach (ow). And I got a really nice gift from Max in the mail. <3. AND I got my hands on the motherlode of "Nicholas Nickleby" screencaps, which was exciting. AND when I was waiting at a stoplight earlier today there was a dude dancing VERY MUCH behind the wheel of the car two back from mine. It made me smile. At the time I also happened to be rocking out to MIKA and singing and dancing myself, which somehow made it even more amusing. MIKA puts me in such a good mood.

And now, to bed!

Things I have been doing (a list mostly ganked directly from a comment I wrote to Zach):

- Looking for a job.
- Being really lazy.

- Turning 20. (Woot. Now I can have an existential crisis because OMG I am in my fucking 20s, and who knows where those will take me.)

- Watching too much TV (mmm, Mythbusters and Globe Trekker and Adult Swim). I also watched the end of the last Bob Barker "Price is Right." Now what will I do if I'm home sick?

- Reading a lot. I'm on The Last of the Wine by Mary Renault now. And oh, do I ever love that woman.

- Adding applications to my Facebook and messing with them a lot.

- Getting excited way in advance to go to the beach next week (because, you know, my life is so hectic and stressful right now, so I sooo need a break... from the TV).

- Hiking. Day hike among the rhododendrons with my mom and dog, overnight with my dad on the night of my birthday / eve of Father's Day.

- Fantasizing about all the British men I will have at my disposal in Britain.

- Staying up late.
- Being antisocial.
- Receiving and buying more books to read later.
- Crocheting bags and coasters/dog hats.
- Cooing at my fish (Dusty and Aurelia) and my cat and dog.
- Becoming heavily addicted to The Sims 2.

- Writing fan fiction of a children's book, which has been fairly well-received, which gives me far too much of a sense of accomplishment.

- Daydreaming.

- Seeing movies... The Science of Sleep, which was beautiful and fun but left me kind of sad, and Paris, Je T'aime, which was fucking awesome. I cannot get it out of my head, int he best possible way. One of the sections seemed half-gleaned from a short story I started, never finished, and still play with.

- Planning to spend gift certificates on yarn, crochet needles, and art supplies, and to buy lots of music.
- Talking to my dad about dating experiences and my mom about sex, which were two big steps in a good direction.
- Missing my friends.
- Figuring out what to read next.
- Writing.
- Smiling at the rain, especially when it comes while the sun is shining.

- Talking on the phone to a friend in Australia (hi Nic!) and on Facebook to friends in China and France. Oh, global communication. You thrill me!

- Getting a new pair of my favorite, extremely worn-down shoes, and a bright blue pair of sneakers.

- Feeling like a true Doctor Who fanatic now that I have TWO box sets. I got the Second Series for my birthday. Also, introducing my mom to Tenth Doctor by way of "New Earth." She and I are both fans of the cat-people.

- Having a closet / shelf system built along one wall of my room. Now I can unpack my clothes when I come home! It is really cool.

- Procrastinating doing the dishes.
- Getting hungry.

( A meme result that is interesting, but not nearly enough to make it into the main body of this update )

I am so hot for these shoes... ( OMG Shoes )

I will be taking a field trip to Atlanta this summer to see the ridiculously awesome collection of shows the High Museum of Art has right now. I mean, come on. I'd go just for this:
Annie Leibovitz: A Photographer’s Life, 1990 – 2005 encompasses 175 images Leibovitz created on assignment as a professional photographer, as well as personal photographs of her family and close friends.
But there's other cool stuff on, too.
Just earlier today I was having raptures over the beauty of Leibovitz's new portraits of Queen Elizabeth II. She's an absolutely amazing photographer.


P.S.
Patrick Wolf is all I need to get by. Patrick Wolf and beauty and a strong cup of tea.